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Twice as bright, Half as long
Previous | Next by ralph 06 June, 2003 - 12:49 PM

Now the flame that burns twice as bright
Burns only half as long
My eyes are growing weary
As I finalize this song
So sit back and have a cup o' joe
And watch the wheels go round
'Cause those damned blue-collar tweekers
Have always run this town

So, in the past week I’ve had a moment of clarity.

I think I’ve had enough of working in the IT field. I’ve always known that I wouldn’t want to do this forever, but in the past week, those thoughts have come more and more to the forefront of my stream of consciousness, which has caused me to really wonder if this is common or not.

I’ve been in this field for the better part of five years now and in the beginning I absolutely loved it. As a few years went by, dealing with the corporate bullshit started to wear on me and take its toll. Now, I’m at the point where I’m really starting to feel that a change is in order. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not going to quit my job right next week, but I think I’ll give myself about another two years before I sever ties with this field, I’m getting burnt out. Now, the question arises, what will I do? Well, I might want to give writing a shot. I’ve received some very nice compliments from people in regards to my writing, and almost all of them have told me that I should pursue it as a career. I know that it’s a very cutthroat industry and it’ll be very difficult to break into, but I might give it a shot. If that doesn’t work out, I’ve always loved to cook. I could definitely see myself wearing a chef’s hat…. Who knows?

I’m 27 years old and still don’t know what I want to do when I grow up, but by using the process of elimination, I know a few things that I don’t want to do. I never want to work in a warehouse again, or drive a truck, or work construction, or install carpeting, or work in the automobile industry. I think I’m going to add IT to that list. How many times do you think we do this in our lives? My father has been working in the same field for 30 years and at the same job for over 20. Is it that times have changed and people tend not to stay in one career for as long as they used to, or am I just testing the water in a lot of different areas? Am I a flake that can’t stay with one thing for too long? I know that once I achieve a certain level of mastery in an area, I tend to get bored. I don’t know. When I got into this field, I did it because it intrigued me and the opportunity to make some decent coin was prevalent. In the past few years, the amount of money that I make is becoming less and less important, as the desire to be able to do something that makes me happy has become more important. Of course, I still want to be able to make enough to sustain a comfortable standard of living, but more than anything, I just want to enjoy what I do. I don’t want to wake up in the morning and dread going to work. This life is too short to not be happy.

Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life. -Confucius

6/7/2003 >> Casey

Take a two week vacation someplace exotic. Then think about it.

6/9/2003 >> ben

ralph dude, i think you know that for us, having an interest in all things and a mastery of nearly none, it's hard to stay in one place (this most definitely not an endorsement, but one of the reasons i like web dev is that i'm learning about new companies and new fields all the time)... i think maybe this is how "consulting" came about? hehehe...

tell you what, you learn about the publishing business and you can publish my books, that way we both make it rich?

9/3/2004 >> Casey

Fish on, Alice.

9/3/2004 >> ben

whoa, she was excited

9/13/2004 >> Casey

I don't wanna look anything up. Just send me some free samples.

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